This past month has just about thrown me on my tush and slapped me upside the head
(Now, if you re-read that, and insert a deep, Southern, Paula Dean accent, then you’ll know how I meant it to be said…)
My how I do love those ellipis
(Again, if you re-read all of that, and insert a deep, Southern, Paula Dean accent, then you’ll know how I meant it to be said…)
I get approximately eleven minutes to myself each week, to do whatever the sugar I want, so let me use this time to just rant, ready? (just be thankful I chose it to share with you, I was going to spray some self-tanner on, but then I realized… a) white is the new right, b) I don’t have patience to let it dry, and c) I don’t have any, so unless butter and brown crayola work…I am S.O.L. and you are in business my friend….)
(I’m also going to put it out here that I am directly quoting the genius of the lovely Shelli of “www.happylittlenest.com” because what she said, is exactly what I did today in my own little head, beautiful hair and all, enjoy:
“What are you scared of?” You ask.
“I dunno, really.” You say.
“What could happen?” You ask.
“I dunno, everything? Anything. All of it.” You say.
“Just let it go.” You tell yourself. “Just let. It. Go.”
“I can’t.”
“Why?”
“I don’t know!”
“There is nothing to be scared of. Everything will work out. Everything will be ok.” You say.
And this time… although your not quite sure why…
your head stops thinking so fucking much and you believe your own words.
This time.
Your heart believes it.
Your head knows it to be true.
It was meant to be this way the whole time…
you just didn’t know it then.
But you know it now.
You don’t know why or what changed.
And, for once, you don’t care.
I don’t care, I do care, I’m not scared, I am completely horrified, etc…
I am just ready to be me again.
Nothin but love
-Kala
